Woke up in London yesterday
Found myself in the city near Piccadilly
Don’t really know how I got here
I got some pictures on my phone
New names and numbers that I don’t know
Address to places like Abbey Road
Day turns to nigh
Night turns to whatever we want
We’re young enough to say
(Chorus)
Oh this has gotta be the good life
This has gotta be the good life
This could really be a good life, good life
Say oh, got this feeling that you can’t fight
Like this city is on fire tonight
This could really be a good life
A good, good life
To my friends in New York, I say hello
My friends in L.A. they don’t know
Where I’ve been for the past few years or so
Paris to China to Col-or-ado
Sometimes there’s airplanes I can’ t jump out
Sometimes there’s bullshit that don’t work now
We are god of stories but please tell me-e-e-e
What there is to complain about
When you’re happy like a fool
Let it take you over
When everything is out
You gotta take it in
(Chorus)
Oh this has gotta be the good life
This has gotta be the good life
This could really be a good life, good life
Say oh, got this feeling that you can’t fight
Like this city is on fire tonight
This could really be a good life
A good, good life
Hopelessly
I feel like there might be something that I’ll miss
Hopelessly
I feel like the window closes oh so quick
Hopelessly
I’m taking a mental picture of you now
‘Cuz hopelessly
The hope is we have so much to feel good about
(Chorus)
Oh this has gotta be the good life
This has gotta be the good life
This could really be a good life, good life
Say oh, got this feeling that you can’t fight
Like this city is on fire tonight
This could really be a good life
A good, good life
SOMTHING BEAUTIFUL {newsboys}
I wanna start it over
I wanna start again
I want a new a new beginning
One without any end
I feel it inside
Calling out to me
CHORUS
It's a voice that whispers my name
It's a kiss without any shame
Something beautiful
Like a song that stirs in my head
Singing love will take us where
Something's beautiful
I've heard it in the silence
Seen it on a face
I've felt it in a long hour
Like a sweet embrace
I know this is true
It's calling out to me
CHORUS
It's a voice that whispers my name
It's a kiss without any shame
Something beautiful
Like a song that stirs in my head
Singing love will take us where
Something's beautiful
It's the child on her wedding day
It's the daddy that gives her away--Father
Something beautiful
When we laugh so hard we cry
It's the love between you and I
Something beautiful
WE WEREN'T BORN TO FOLLOW
{bon jovi}
This one goes out to the man who mines for miracles
This one goes out to the ones in need
This one goes out to the sinner and the cynical
This ain't about no apology
This road was paved by the hopeless and the hungry
This road was paved by the winds of change
Walking beside the guilty and the innocent
How will you raise your hand when they call your name?
Yeah, yeah, yeah
We weren't born to follow
Come on and get up off your knees
When life is a bitter pill to swallow
You gotta hold on to what you believe
Believe that the sun will shine tomorrow
And that your saints and sinners bleed
We weren't born to follow
You gotta stand up for what you believe
Let me hear you say yeah, yeah, yeah, oh yeah
This one's about anyone who does it differently
This one's about the one who cusses and spits
This ain't about our livin' in a fantasy
This ain't about givin' up or givin' in
Yeah, yeah, yeah
We weren't born to follow
Come on and get up off your knees
When life is a bitter pill to swallow
You gotta hold on to what you believe
Believe that the sun will shine tomorrow
And that your saints and sinners bleed
We weren't born to follow
You gotta stand up for what you believe
Let me hear you say yeah, yeah, yeah, oh yeah
Let me hear you say yeah, yeah, yeah, oh yeah
[guitar solo]
We weren't born to follow
Come on and get up off your knees
When life is a bitter pill to swallow
You gotta hold on to what you believe
Believe that the sun will shine tomorrow
And that your saints and sinners bleed
We weren't born to follow
You gotta stand up for what you believe
Let me hear you say yeah, yeah, yeah, oh yeah
Let me hear you say yeah, yeah, yeah, oh yeah
We weren't born to follow - oh yeah
We weren't born to follow - oh yeah
Busy day sorta. Both positive and negative things but hey it's all right. I usually have my radio on 24/7 one songthat played to day was Good Life by One Republic ah hat do we have to complain about? This is a good life:) made me think more..... We should be thank Gil that we are here ad noatter what happens in life, it's Gods will, and we need to trust fuly on Him and He will give us a good life. Because tbh no life is good wothout God) later on in the day thunderstorm sorta.. rain that smelled so good.. they should make air freshener like that. Built a bulletin board for my room and worked my on my room. Rode my horse) ah siting here and one of my favorites is on the radio Just A Dream by Nelly:) anywyas I'll post pictures later... hopefully..:P
So many times I have felt and seen failure in my life. So many times I have thought to my self "why could I have just shut up then?” Failure is what I had/have been feeling for a long time. Recently talking to one of my classmates about my problems in life, she told me I was a fighter. I didn’t’t get it and it totally threw me off. She said to me`` I would have ever guessed that you were going through so much pain. You always seem so strong and happy, when whenever I came to you with my problems you helped me fix them totally, you told me to look to the bright side. You always put your self last, even if it meant giving up a lot of time or stuff that was important. And I guess I would take my hat off to you, because you would push through the day and not show anything, even if you’ve had the roughest night. “ I was speechless… so I used my simple reply. “Umm okay..?” The next thing she said was a totally shocker “ You’re a fighter. I’ve never seen you give up.” How can she see that in me? When I can’t even picture that in myself? Is it wrong to let the world only see one side of me? Because when I look at myself, I see this girl that afraid of a lot of things, a girl that is confused, a girl that wants to break down and cry, a girl that’s failed so many times, a girl that feels like giving up so often, a girl that hides from the world behind smiles, a girl that pushes people away.
For a few years I have been helping teaching at VBS, every so often I would here the words “ I want to be just like you when I grow up.” AH! not only there but at my grade school, church and other places too. What do they see in me that makes me so special? Maybe the person I am when I forget my problems for a little while, maybe they see the person I can sometimes be? One of the things that adds stress is knowing that little kids, who have there whole life’s to live, look up to me. Watching carefully what you do, say, how you act, its what they see, and how they want to be. A little while ago, this guy my age was questioning my faith. He’s like to me “your perfect, I never can be.” It took a while to explain that I wasn’t near perfect, or ever would be. Later on in that day, I got frustrated and said some non positive things about my work. His reply was “ I thought you were a Christian, but I guess Christians are the same as everyone else.” AH! FAIL! Someday I want to have my own family, my own house, my own kids. Im scared of making mistakes, not being able to take care and manage a family. Lord willing some day I will have my own kids, yea they will be young and grow up. I’m scared that I might mess up someday and do something or say something dumb, and they will learn from that. AH! Why do I feel like a failure so often? I know that I have this super bad habit of blaming myself, sometimes I guess I need to realize that no one perfect, that we all are sinful. I guess life will be like that, but sometimes you’ve got to realize we are born sinfully, and not perfect. That no one’s perfect, even if they seem perfect…and that someday you will be perfect. One good thing about failing is that at the end of the day you can look back on your mistakes and learn from them. Learn how to not do it again, and sometimes it might take a few times over of that mistake, but eventually you will learn. And if there is something about life, something that you struggle with, pray about it. God is always there. This takes me back to my favourite verse. Matt 11:28-31“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” We can cast all our troubles on God, our struggles, things we need help on. And He is always there (: anyways.. its getting late..
Today I havnt really done much, photography, worked on my room, walked about outside for a while and the library.. so it was a nice calm day for a while.... :)
Zicada(or how ever you spell it) shell... these bugs leave there old shells behind and produce new ones... its sorta cool and it reminds me of Ephesians 4:22-24 "You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; 23 to be made new in the attitude of your minds; 24 and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness. "
The little guy I found eating the moon flower..
my house #
my house...
my lunch.. apperently I eat to to much fruit and veggies.. and not enough meat.. but ahh thats okay:)
Taking a walk outside, I see the beauty of creation. The power, and majesty of the Lord... He cares for all of His creation, and He knows us all by name. Makes me think of Matt 11:28-31, though we may seem like nobody cares, God does all the time. And we can cast our thoughts, hurts and troubles to Him, because He is there.